Yesterday, was a day full of so many different emotions. I started my day out hanging out with my babies, Justin had left at 5:30 in the morning to go pick up his car from his parent’s house. So that he could be at a garage at 8 to begin to replace his clutch. So the kiddos and I went to the mall for a bit – spent WAY too long in Claires picking out earings. Lots of excitement happened there. Then we came home and waited for my mom to arrive to watch them while I captured Jason & Ashley’s wedding. Their wedding was beautiful, and so much fun! As I prepared to leave for the evening, around 9, I called Justin to see where he was and he was still working on his car. It was extremely overwhelming to find out that he was still at the shop, but I made the treck home to relieve my mom and thank her for staying much longer than expected. Mom left and I got the kids in bed. I was sitting on the couch watching t.v. and the phone rang. Justin had wrecked the car. I sat in awe, I could not believe what I was hearing. He and some AMAZING friends had worked on that car for over 10 hours. The clutch was fixed, and the car was again not driveable. I had so many disappointments in my heart and mind. Completely overwhelmed with anger that this had happened. And then it hit me. Thank God he’s alive. It could have been worse. What if I had lost the love of my life. I needed to be THANKFUL, and GREATFUL. Not angry, not disappointed. I have thought all day long, I cannot believe this happened. And everytime I think that, I look at my husband and Thank God for him.
We went out to look at the car today and get some pictures, and it wasn’t as bad as I had envisioned. But still scary and really hard to believe. I think the one main thing that my husband and I have gotten out of this is that we are not perfect. Simple, but none the less, true. We are so critical of everything we do, everything we see, everything that we are. All because of an image that we portray, this person we want to be. But the reality of it all is, no matter how hard we try – we will never be perfect. There is only 1 that is perfect and that is Jesus.
-Rachel
by Rachel
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